Saturday, 28 March 2020

Trying To Find The Light In The Darkness

Ever since this pandemic broke out, it has been so hard to find the light in the darkness. Just when you think that there's a glimmer of hope, something happens and that light is extinguished. A lot of us including myself are struggling to make sense out of all of this but there are days when it gets too overwhelming.

You hear the news everyday and you hear how everybody is making an effort to slow down the spread of this virus but there are still some idiots out there who simply can't be bothered to follow what everyone is being asked of to slow down the spread of COVID-19. I have neighbors who still have gatherings and I know it's just for their families to get together or it's just to keep their kids entertained while they are out of school. But with modern technology now, you can always video call each other and make that sacrifice of not seeing each other in person. I also have a neighbor who also insists on playing street hockey with his mom and takes up the whole street not caring for the other neighbors who might want to walk around the neighborhood for exercise and still maintain social distancing. Their excuse is that the son is one of Canada's top junior hockey player and is a candidate for the NHL. Those neighbors of mine were jerks to begin with but really, do you think that just because he's a candidate for the NHL, that gives them the excuse not to stay at home like everyone else and not practice some sensitivity towards their fellow neighbors? When you see people in the news that don't practice social distancing, that makes me lose hope too because chances are those few who refuse to follow will be the ones to somehow contaminate or infect other people.

Today, I decided to take a break from Facebook because there are just too many depressing stuff being posted and there are also those who are flooding FB with so many COVID-19 stuff. I know that a lot of them have the best intentions but they don't see the other side to this or maybe they do but they refuse to see it. With all the information, the news, the articles, etc., flooding FB, one could easily fall into depression, have an anxiety attack, etc. These people may think that they are trying to save lives by posting all of those but I don't know if they are aware that it takes a toll on some people mentally. I hate to say it or even think about it but if this pandemic goes on longer, a part of society won't only die from COVID-19 but will also die from suicide. Only time I will probably log into Facebook is to see updates from my church and to hear mass on Sundays because they have a live streaming on Saturdays and Sundays and to share some posts but other than that, I probably will have to stop reading some posts. I don't want to unfriend some friends because I know a lot of them have the best intentions. So, all that I can do is to filter what I read. Don't mean to sound selfish or self absorbed but I need to do this for myself in order to get through this pandemic.

Yes, there's so much negativity out there and you can easily get sucked into it and go on a downward spiral fall but you just have to focus on the positivity out there and try to spread the love and joy to others too by trying to spark that light in you and spread it. I know a lot of people out there are saying that it is easier said than done but believe me, it can be done. There was a stage in my life wherein I suffered from depression and hit rock bottom. I hid it well and most people did not know about it but with help, I made it through. Someone told me that if they were in my shoes, they probably would have killed themselves already. Just because I survived it doesn't mean that I will never fall into depression again. That's why I make myself aware about the red flags that come up. You have to focus on the positive like a person who showed you kindness today, a beautiful flower, the people risking their lives to fight this virus, etc. If things get tough, get professional help or call you local suicide hotline. Don't give up. Just remember that you matter and suicide is not the answer. Things may seem so dark right now but if you hang in there, you will see the light. If you are scared that COVID-19 will kill you, I have bad news for you. We are all going to die in the end. No one lives forever. If COVID-19 does not kill you, something else will - old age, a heart attack, etc. So, be strong and hang in there. We will all get through this. It may take long but together we can do this and there will be light that will conquer the darkness.

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